Excerpt: Domestic Correspondant III

…I’m currently drinking cran grape juice from a coffee mug (because I drink everything but coffee from mugs) and the design is sketches of fanciful insects. It’s Andy Warhol (who I will NEVER not love) and says “Happy Bug Day” on it. Inside the mug, a line of fine type runs below the lip w/the quote, “You need to let the little things that would ordinarily bore you suddenly thrill you.” Lately, that feels so difficult. It feels hard to let anything at all thrill me, and it’s the worst. It’s the classic knowing vs feeling thing. I know that Shakespeare wasn’t lying when he said you can find good in everything, and I know Henry Miller was right in saying every moment is golden to him who has the vision to see it as such…I know these things and believe them faithfully, but gosh, it feels overwhelmingly hard these days…

The world feels pretty empty and terrible right now. Really fucking terrible, to be honest. Still, I know that in the darkness, there are so many fighting the good fight to fill the world w/love and beauty again. And truly, I feel blessed (no hashtag) to know so many creatives, academics, educators, doctors, innovators, and just genuinely good and joyful people who perhaps don’t even know the value of their mere existence and the way they live and love. So many people I love are so very generous with themselves, w/their love and talents and various forms of brilliance. Even if I do nothing else, I think I would be happy if only I can help these people understand their self-worth, that they are doing something incredible, and they are loved. I think that would be enough.

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